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Drug Induced coma by tormented-dreamer, literature

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Drug Induced coma

Coke induced coma, where do your priorities lie? When your head is in tatters and your life is in a state of crime Your house is a den filled with whores, drugs and sex So where is your next hit my friend, where are you to be blessed? Where are all your dreams acted out, your sordid little affairs? Be ready for what comes next, my dear, because no one really cares Think about what you are about to receive, My God, your should be prepared For the pain you are about to feel When your head suddenly goes bare No more happy feelings of tranquillity and glee You're brought back down to earth with a gunshot fired straight into your knee

Lost by tormented-dreamer, literature

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Lost

I wake up, this is my life, day by day, minute by minute, second by second I flow through life without a care in the world, knowing that one day I'll be happy I won't be dead inside, I won't have a void to fill, and I won't need to gasp for air every time I awake… I'll be free, like the wind when it brushes past your face in the cool evening breeze, I breathe in, I take in the sights around me, it's like I'm in a coma and I can't get myself out, I'm stuck…forever and always…lost for eternity, in a shell that I can't get out of I'm isolated, trapped, in the desolate, obsolete, profoundly quiet existence, where no one knows I even exist…

i see what i want to see by tormented-dreamer, literature

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i see what i want to see

I glance out of the tiny cube-like window, to see speckles of light fluttering in like butterflies. I see what I want to see, reality in it purest form, ridiculed by the laughter of fate It doesn't make sense to me, as my eyes become accustomed to the bright, white light which is consuming my soul and mind I haven't been free from this place in twenty five years, every day in darkness, engulfed by a void which I can't seem to fill, waiting to die a slow, painful, erratic death Gripping onto the soft, white linen, as it brushes past my face, the texture so smooth, I cry out, a long ear piercing scream. They're back again. My demons. They'

why? by tormented-dreamer, literature

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why?

When you feel trapped, betrayed, and dejected I'll be there to comfort you, you won't feel neglected I'll give you my heart, soul and mind Until you hack it away and severe the binds Use and abuse me to your own amusement Until I cannot run, I'm trapped in this torment Laughing at me, I suddenly see, I must be a glutton for punishment because I let my heart bleed Gripping on to what reality is left Till I can no longer carry this burden on my chest The tears I cry will no longer subside till all around me I feel the lies Of the people I've known, who have let me down, my self esteem isn't lifted from the ground Degraded, broken, b

Don't believe the lies by tormented-dreamer, literature

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Don't believe the lies

Frivolous attitudes cast astray aren't really supposed to be Bitching, lying, deceiving yourself till all around you don't see Caught up in your lies, in the mask you wear You really should consider the future before you dare Ruin your life, and lose everything Be careful; be warned I won't forgive your sin You hypocritical, lying cheat, you are corrupted by the things you don't see Oblivious to those around you, till on the ground you'll be No one to protect you, no one around everything loses control Till you cannot breathe, the air is glazed, With your pure insanity, your emotions galore Degraded, betrayed, vengeful self isn't

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the end is inevitabel by tormented-dreamer, literature

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the end is inevitabel

I saw you there, pure, eternal and innocent Moving swiftly in your own torment Your clothes flowing in unmistakable fear You're perishing in your very last tears Your flawless face and pure white skin Is without doubt, emotion or sin Your breath in the silence is obsolete It's full of violence, vengeance and deceit The painted picture of death itself Is in limbo with heaven and hell You compromise with all the lies That have been told and does now unfold Your composure deceased, you've faced brutality It is with you the signs of treachery That your family, friends and people you know Your anger and revenge will only grow All

This is it by tormented-dreamer, literature

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This is it

Everything goes wrong, the world is ending I cherished my life but I was just pretending Broken tears and wasting away My wounds aren't healing The truth is the answer but I don't understand it I hope you regret what you did to me Its drove me over the edge But the cliff is never ending the ground is beneath me Tears flood down my face and streak my skin Faith was the answer but it's too late It's my destiny and my fate I can't fight my feelings they bear down on me Suffocate my soul All I can see is a never ending hole Is this it? Is this life? Where will it end and what is the point I can't fight temptations or real life s

Deceased by tormented-dreamer, literature

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Deceased

I see you again like the very depth of my soul Living inside of my heart, fulfilling my void It surges through my skin, like cold blooded murder Perpetual, everlasting pain, I'm falling in my own, deafening world Treachery, betrayal, disloyalty, brutality Are suppressed in my own eternal core My immortal stance is withering in this war I can't see the everlasting light, my heart is torn I'm suffocating in my own incessant fears No one can distinguish me or catch my tears The pain that I feel is because of you, you drove me over the edge So this is my last, anguished pledge You're in my mind influencing my thoughts Making me think

Who will regret? by tormented-dreamer, literature

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Who will regret?

Is it this? Is this bliss? What I've told, you forever behold In the depth of your core it never remains You battle with the constant strain The very blood that runs through you You are eternally untrue What I see You never be Can't you see? You're destroying me What ive known What you've shown Will never cease to be What ive learned What you've yearned What ive felt How ive dealt Will never be forgiven Is this it? Eternal bliss? Deprived of all my thoughts A fight I cannot win My will they'll take away I'm free from life's sin They betray I remain They will take I feel the strain They deceive I believe That they

will you be there? by tormented-dreamer, literature

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will you be there?

Will you be there to share my tears? Even when I cry my very last tears Will you be there when the pain sears? Or will you leave me when no hope is near i feel the air around me, its cold I feel the air suffocate my soul I feel betrayal sink beneath my core I feel the world end and I soar True friends feel ecstasy when you rise above They are there for you when you fall out of love They sense your pain from a mile away They will always be there till the day they stray i feel the air around me, its cold I feel the air suffocate my soul I feel betrayal sink beneath my core I feel the world end and I soar I know myself that there

love is pain and pain is love by tormented-dreamer, literature

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love is pain and pain is love

She looks up to the sky and the heavens above Praying to God that she won't feel the pain She searches the earth for the one she truly loves She hangs her head and cries in shame The pain we feel, only grows and we shall never know Love opens every door, and then we can finally soar Through the gateways of heaven, to the skies above We can do all this with the one true emotion… that is love What is she to do? Only let go off her past But the living present is just too vast Her mind is in pain, as part of her knows The man she loved, her memories flow The pain we feel, only grows and we shall never know Love opens every door, and

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Incarcerated corpse by tormented-dreamer, literature

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Incarcerated corpse

Is that what you see? Blatantly obvious don't you think Trickling down the face of the damned Laugh purposefully; I can see it in your cold black eyes Bloodthirsty, you know you can hack it Slip through your hands, and obtain it in your jacket Trembling, your hands are shaking, what have you done? You've killed her, you've murdered her soul, you've ripped out her heart She only wanted to love you, you just couldn't see The irony seeps through your thoughts, You remember thinking that she didn't care, But she did, more then you'll know, It stained her skin, blackened her soul, but she loved you, with a passion As she lies dead

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United Kingdom
Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: whittle-le-woods, chorley
Favourite genre of music: same as above
Operating System: windows xp
MP3 player of choice: iphone 4
Favourite cartoon character: stewie griffin
Personal Quote: it is best to regret something you did then something you didn't

Favourite Movies

fight club, fear and loathing, pulp fiction

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

dubstep DnB hiphop

Favourite Writers

lynda la plante

Favourite Games

fallout new vegas or LA noire

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music, psychology, friends etc

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tormented-dreamer

Oct 10, 2007

long time...

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Well... figured i would write somet since i havent done for a while. lol, well actually 7 months wow thats a while, sooo whats been happening? ok, ive had writers block for a while can't seem to get anything to sound right i duno mayb i just need to sit and realli think then im sure ill come up with something. in the past 7 months i've a) had several jobs = very unsuccessful lol b) started university YIPEEE!!! :) love it its awesome c) got knocked over by a car (OUCH!!!) might i just add lol, and d) got a modelling contract YAY!!! i shall put some piccies up when i get the portfolio in a couple of weeks eek :) am so excited hehe. ive also h

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tormented-dreamer

Mar 27, 2007

exasperated

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~Well, i haven't done a journal or poem for a long long time,so here's an update on my life over the past 8 months, i'm still with my bf whom i love dearly with all my heart :), however im not happy, i was for a while, but now im not. Im in a rut in my life where i dont no what to do, im doing an open uni course which to be honest is a bit shit but i dont want to go to uni becuz of my bf, i cant lose him, he's the only thing ive got. i have my friends, of course, but there all leavin me soon, or have already left me, ive been comforting eatin recently to, yay :( lol, I feel lost, lonely and confused atm, got no job cuz i cant find one so am

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tormented-dreamer

Aug 15, 2006

does lil dance

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well... im absolutely fabulous atm... hehe amj so excited life can be good or so it seems... got a job workin at forbes solicitors which i love so nuch :D it rockthes hehehe....cba goin to uni no point i can do a law degree whilst workin for them anyway which is what ive decided (yes i made a decision about my life) i wana do... yay *does lil dance* :p...other news is that me n my bf r doin reali well atm (his site is www.brandnewethics.com for all u hip hop lovers) :p hehe its an ace site hes goin into his third yr uni doin multimedia n webdesign. so if anybody needs anythin to do with tht doin i can recommend him, he's v gd :) :p hehe...he